There is a moment of realization after a break up. You start to realize the person you thought would always be there for you isn't. He's not available when you need him. He's not there for you all the time. You can't call. You can't text. So you cry.
And so I sit here unable to talk to the one I want to.
But its okay. Because now I realize what really matters and who really matters. And it makes me upset. I needed a friend tonight. I needed someone to talk to. And the only person I wanted to talk with wasn't there for me. He wasn't there for me when I needed him.
I think if I type this enough it will stick with me.
It shouldn't matter what I wanted to talk about. It shouldn't matter when I needed this person. The only thing that should matter is the fact that I needed someone and he wasn't willing to break away from friends in order to talk to me.
What if it was serious? What if it was something life altering? Would he ever know? No.
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