Beginnings

I have become inspired again. I forgot how much I love to write. I haven't done this in such a long time, but I feel that now is the perfect time to begin again. If you look at any of my older blogs, you will see that I was passionate about writing and it was usually always about love. I am no different now. Since then, I have fallen into and out of love, and am still trying to find that one place I fit.

I'm at that age where I'm trying to discover me, who I'm supposed to be with, and what I'm supposed to do. I have one of those almost figured out. Someday, I will own a coffee shop. I was always scared to tell people that. Everyone has always thought I was smart. Well I am, but I'm also creative and I need an outlet. I cannot be a doctor or lawyer. That would bore me, and I want to be happy. I want to own my own business and be my own boss. I want to do things independently and exactly how I like them. I love coffee, and I've heard that if you find something you love to do, find a way to make a career out of it, and you'll never work a day in your life. I'm doing just that.

As far as my other two uncertainties go, I haven't figured those out. I'm still working on me and who I am. And I'm working on that one person. It turns out that your forever isn't always who you thought it would be. Or maybe it is. I'm still so young, and I don't know exactly what my future holds. I try not to look too far into the future in order to protect myself even though I would love to be overly optimistic. But I can't be. I'm taking one day at a time and trying to deal with day to day living. And its working. I'm starting to understand why certain things fall apart when they do. Everything I've done during college so far has been a learning experience. Even though most of it has been learning the hard way, sometimes that's better than learning the easy way. Not that I want to get hurt, but its helping me grow as an adult.

Which is weird to say. I'm an adult now. Since I turned 20, I honestly do feel more mature than I have at any other birthday. I'm officially out of my teens. However, I'm still considered a "punk kid" and I'm not taken seriously yet. But I still have to deal with adult issues like bills and the like. But its all apart of growing up.