Strong Willed

Originally written January 2012, never posted:

I've never felt so passionate as I do for this. I believe in something called love and I believe its able to heal many. Even now, when it seems that love doesn't exist, I am still able to feel it. I know my friends and family love me. I know they care. They're there for me when I'm feeling at my lowest.

Even in relationships, I still believe in love. I don't know who its supposed to be with, but it will happen eventually. I will find my forever (or he will find me!). I think its important to keep all possibilities open because you never know what else is out there.

I thought I found my forever already. But its not quite forever yet. Not that it will be eventually, but it could be. I want to find out. But I'm also curious to see what else is there. I don't know how I would feel with anyone else when I haven't been with anyone else in so long.

This is a learning experience. This is part of growing up. This is part of hurting and finding out who I'm truly supposed to be with. This is someone I thought was figured out, but I'm on a whole other level now. I hope that I'm able to make sense of everything that's happening right now. I hope that sometime in the near future, I am able to find out exactly why everything happens for a reason. I know things fall apart so other things can fall together; but who says that has to be with different people? Or maybe it has to. I don't know now, but I will find out soon.