Realizations

I am coming to find that I deserve so much more than what I have known. I deserve the world and someone who will give that to me. That what makes me feel like I've moved on. This is the best feeling about all of this. Realizing what I thought was a good relationship that was really just a mess of feelings and half hearted attempts to make me happy.

But I'm starting to really feel happy. I feel good about me. I feel like I can do anything. I'm excited about my future. I'm excited to open a coffee shop. I'm excited about the possibilities that await me. I can do anything. I am independent and I don't need anyone but me. Over the last month, I have found truly great people to be around and call my friends. I lost that over the last two years, but I'm excited to keep calling them my friends and to be with them as much as possible.

I've even thought about the possibility of opening up a restaurant with a completely new concept. I think it would be amazing. It makes me happy knowing I can do anything and I don't have to please anyone but myself. And if someone wants to help me pursue my dreams, they can stand with me. But if they want to bring me down, or I feel that I have to diminish my dreams to make them happy, then I don't want them around.

I feel free and I love this feeling.